April 2016
Really. Four months since an entry. Lots has been happening at the Havercamps.
But of all the things that have happened in the last four months two of my favorite things happened today.
Both of my boys, unsolicited, told me they loved me. Not because I told them, not because they were responding to my I love you but just because.
And for Asher it was the first time ever that he has done this.
We were hanging at the kitchen island and he of course was standing on it (go figure) but I was giving him a hug. He squeezed me tight, leaned back and looked at me and said, "I love you." (in the most adorable 2 year old voice ever). I just laughed. Really Asher, you love me? And he just says, "I love you."
But he didn't say it because I asked him to. It was a swelling of his heart and it just crept out. And it made me stop in my tracks.
And then tonight. I'm working out after the little two went to bed. Jackson is standing next to me half working out with me/half watching the workout video. And he just said out of the blue. "Mom, I love you. I love you as a mom." Again, I laughed. A laughter of joy and just said, "Well what makes you say that?" And he says, "I just do. Your the best mom ever."
And there was the joy again.
I wonder if that's how God feels when we pause long enough to tell Him we love Him. I can only imagine as I caught a glimpse of the unforced, unsolicited, authentically honest love that comes out of a heart that truly means it. He must know that. And He must laugh with joy and swell with pride.
Its been a week of eye issues (Michael), a child of post surgery for ten days (Jackson tonsillectomy), one late night puking kiddo (Addie Rose) and- well-everyday with Asher is unpredictable...but I'm holding on to these precious moments today where my boys told me they loved...because somewhere in there they do even if a lot of times they are too distracted or busy to tell me. :)
But of all the things that have happened in the last four months two of my favorite things happened today.
Both of my boys, unsolicited, told me they loved me. Not because I told them, not because they were responding to my I love you but just because.
And for Asher it was the first time ever that he has done this.
We were hanging at the kitchen island and he of course was standing on it (go figure) but I was giving him a hug. He squeezed me tight, leaned back and looked at me and said, "I love you." (in the most adorable 2 year old voice ever). I just laughed. Really Asher, you love me? And he just says, "I love you."
But he didn't say it because I asked him to. It was a swelling of his heart and it just crept out. And it made me stop in my tracks.
And then tonight. I'm working out after the little two went to bed. Jackson is standing next to me half working out with me/half watching the workout video. And he just said out of the blue. "Mom, I love you. I love you as a mom." Again, I laughed. A laughter of joy and just said, "Well what makes you say that?" And he says, "I just do. Your the best mom ever."
And there was the joy again.
I wonder if that's how God feels when we pause long enough to tell Him we love Him. I can only imagine as I caught a glimpse of the unforced, unsolicited, authentically honest love that comes out of a heart that truly means it. He must know that. And He must laugh with joy and swell with pride.
Its been a week of eye issues (Michael), a child of post surgery for ten days (Jackson tonsillectomy), one late night puking kiddo (Addie Rose) and- well-everyday with Asher is unpredictable...but I'm holding on to these precious moments today where my boys told me they loved...because somewhere in there they do even if a lot of times they are too distracted or busy to tell me. :)
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