Spring

O Spring where are you?  That is normally what I would entitle a post about this time...but it just doesn't feel right.  Having the sun for a few days has been nice but today put me in a funk.  Rainy gloomy day...again.

I couldn't quite place what was causing me to be in a funk today but I just was.  I returned home from being in Carroll this weekend for more shoots which was awesome and today I just couldn't get out of it.  Finally tonight i was able to sit in some quiet and when I did I read Psalm 43:  "Why are you downcast, O my soul?  Why so disturbed within me?  Put your hope in God for I will yet priase him, my savior and my God."

And a few minutes of quiet was all I needed to put life in perspective and refocus my heart.  I don't know what I would do without faith.  My days would be much harder and have much less hope if it wasn't for God's promises and my quiet times.

So yeah...I wasn't the greatest mom today.  I tried to take the kids to the Museum and the library...and it worked.  But when I was home with them I was pretty unmotivated.  We watched a little too much tv and I spent a little too much time behind a screen.

But I'm not beating myself up...just going to try again tomorrow...and remind myself of a passage I read last week.  I need to constantly have it on my heart and it has been the easiest passage of Scripture that I have ever memorized so quickly...maybe God is trying to tell me something in that :) ...

"May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart, be pleasing in your sight, O Lord my rock and my Redeemer."  Psalm 19.