Truth
Tonight I planned to blog about Addie Rose being 18 months old...It's what I would normally do. But I just saw through the many posts on facebook that a young mom I had known in Madison died unexpectedly. It feels so wrong to 'just go about my business' and not be outraged at the injustice that just happened.
How can I blog about what Addie Rose has been up to lately and not think about these five kiddos who won't get to be with their mother any more?
How can I share about what her new words are when there is a new baby out there who won't get to know his mother's touch in this lifetime?
And how can I just pretend that this didn't happen?
It just feels wrong.
I had the same feeling today when I went to get groceries. I thought to myself, "Gosh how nice that I can just go and do normal things when I bet those guys would give anything to just be experiencing normal."'
And I didn't even know this beautiful mother that well. What I did know of Kiley was that she was strong, faithful, TOTALLY committed to the Lord and REAL. Gosh I was refreshed by how real she was. The few encounters I had with her showed me that she was a strong woman of the Lord but she was still human. That was so refreshing to me.
Truth be told I knew her husband better from working together. And I just ache for him. You just want to fix it, yah know? You want to take all their pain away...and I haven't even seen them for years...but I just wish I could take it all away.
How can I share the beautiful things my daughter is going through when I feel so much pain for them? How can I justify gushing over our life when all I can do is think about their brokenness, their sadness and their grief?
There are no platitudes that will fix this, no empty words that will make it go away. The only consolation is that they believe in something bigger than themselves. They have given their lives to Christ. That simple truth does not dismiss this pain. It will not dry their tears or take away the reality that their mommy is no longer with them in human form. Knowing Christ will not make up for the fact that they will not have a wife to listen to them when they need to chat or a mother who just gets it. It won't. Unfortunately, that's the harsh truth.
But I do know that I'm grateful...that if a family is going to go through this...it's a family that has faith. Thank you God for that. They will suffer and this is just the beginning of the long road of grief...but they have You. That is the only consolation.
Kiley Hackl...I barely knew you. But I knew you enough to know that you would have been honored to know how many people you brought to their knees. For that simple fact Kiley...you are a saint. Blessings to you.
How can I blog about what Addie Rose has been up to lately and not think about these five kiddos who won't get to be with their mother any more?
How can I share about what her new words are when there is a new baby out there who won't get to know his mother's touch in this lifetime?
And how can I just pretend that this didn't happen?
It just feels wrong.
I had the same feeling today when I went to get groceries. I thought to myself, "Gosh how nice that I can just go and do normal things when I bet those guys would give anything to just be experiencing normal."'
And I didn't even know this beautiful mother that well. What I did know of Kiley was that she was strong, faithful, TOTALLY committed to the Lord and REAL. Gosh I was refreshed by how real she was. The few encounters I had with her showed me that she was a strong woman of the Lord but she was still human. That was so refreshing to me.
Truth be told I knew her husband better from working together. And I just ache for him. You just want to fix it, yah know? You want to take all their pain away...and I haven't even seen them for years...but I just wish I could take it all away.
How can I share the beautiful things my daughter is going through when I feel so much pain for them? How can I justify gushing over our life when all I can do is think about their brokenness, their sadness and their grief?
There are no platitudes that will fix this, no empty words that will make it go away. The only consolation is that they believe in something bigger than themselves. They have given their lives to Christ. That simple truth does not dismiss this pain. It will not dry their tears or take away the reality that their mommy is no longer with them in human form. Knowing Christ will not make up for the fact that they will not have a wife to listen to them when they need to chat or a mother who just gets it. It won't. Unfortunately, that's the harsh truth.
But I do know that I'm grateful...that if a family is going to go through this...it's a family that has faith. Thank you God for that. They will suffer and this is just the beginning of the long road of grief...but they have You. That is the only consolation.
Kiley Hackl...I barely knew you. But I knew you enough to know that you would have been honored to know how many people you brought to their knees. For that simple fact Kiley...you are a saint. Blessings to you.
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